My Journey of Self-Discovery through Discovering Christ
Last year I shared food had taken a seat as an “idol” in my life. It’s what I turned to for comfort in times of sorrow, for relief in times of stress, and for celebration in times of joy. Food had held an unhealthy position in my life for a long time, and last year began a journey to start tearing down some of the walls and defeats in my battle with food.
This year continues the battle, and I’m realizing that in this struggle with dethroning food as an idol and unhealthy consumption in my life, there has to be in place a plan of attack that will address all the different angles. I feel like my goals for the month of January are addressing those angles, and I am beginning to see small victories.
Today marks Day 22 of our second round of the Whole30.
For me, the Whole30 helps me address my “food cravings”. While it seems like it would be difficult to eliminate so many different types of foods (and at times, it is) I can honestly say it works. I remember in December I had days where I was completely fixated on the bag of candy I knew was in the pantry. Not to mention all the fantastic excuses of “it’s a special occasion” to indulge in one more cookie or a little more sour cream. Yesterday, my biggest craving was wanting a frozen banana. Sadly, we were out of bananas, however, I couldn’t help but think to myself “How awesome is that, I am actually wanting fruit over candy for a change!“
This week I had two major obstacles, both were potluck situations. I’m glad to say, with prayer beforehand, I was able to navigate both situations without compromising my journey. Praise the Lord for that! I also am thankful for supportive friends who invited us over for dinner, and went out of their way to set aside some soup for me before putting the “non-Zella” ingredients in. It was very touching and I was so appreciative for their thoughtfulness!
I also know this Whole30 round has helped me tremendously with good, quality, deep sleep. I miss my afternoon coffee simply because I LOVE the taste of coffee. However, I love the SLEEP I’m getting so much, I’m not willing to risk indulging in ANY caffeine after noon.
Whole 30 attacks the “mow junk” part of my journey. The restrictiveness of it helps me to really hone in on where I’ve had the most trouble, and walk away from it food wise.
Which brings me to my next goal, exercise.
Today will mark my 17th day of my Power90 program. I’m sure the exercise mixed in with the decreased coffee consumption pair hand in hand with the better quality of sleep. It is also attacking my stress. I’m more relaxed, and after a good work out, I feel energized and ready to jump back into life.
I have found that I still struggle with actually doing my exercise, even though EVERY SINGLE TIME I feel so much better once I’ve completed it. I find myself avoiding it until I simply can’t anymore, and some days it really takes out the joy of the workout, because I’m just rushing to get it done.
Which leads right into my next goal, the Made To Crave online bible study.
This morning as I read the next Chapter, something really struck me in this reading.
Now I have been praying about my food cravings. I have been praying about potlucks and keeping my integrity with this 30 day commitment I made to myself (and anyone who reads this little spot on the internet) that I was going to fully complete a round of Whole30 this month.
So if exercise is part of my plan for better health – why don’t I pray when I’m putting it off?
Why do I think God doesn’t want to hear about my prayers on this journey? Why do I think that my struggles in this area are not “important enough” to take to the Lord in prayer? Why do I think I will accomplish this in my own strength, knowing full well, that my strength will only take me so far and never far enough?
Is it because I don’t give God my most personal struggles, the ones that wage wars in my heart, that I find it sometimes difficult to completely trust Him with the “biggies”? If I try to do the “little things” on my own, that are in my “control” – won’t I try to control the big things that are really out of my control?
Praise goes to the Lord that I’m sleeping better. Praise goes to the Lord that I’m sticking with this Whole30 and physically feeling better. Praise goes to the Lord that I can do 10 push-ups again without having to drop to my knees, and side-kicks no longer slow me down. Praise goes to the Lord that I am carving out time to be in His Word, and dive into the studies He has brought into my lap to keep my mind focused on His truths and my heart focused on His words.
And it’s time I take it even deeper. To really pray to Him about it ALL. Including my procrastination – not just with exercise, with laundry, washing dishes, and prepping meals. That’s the issue I think ultimately my “putting off” exercise is really revealing. My desire to be lazy and procrastinate. So this week, my focus is to also give this to the Lord. Remembering that in this journey, I must also attack it from a spiritual perspective. The most important attack of them all.
We shall see how He works it out in me this week.
How are you doing on your journey of health and wellness?
Weigh-in and let’s keep running towards the finish line, following the path the Lord has laid for us.
In Love & Faith,