If someone would have told me someday I would spend four solid hours of in-the-store-actively-grocery-shopping, and loving nearly every minute of it, I would have never believed it.
There is still some adjusting from being a career woman to a homemaker. Emotionally. Mentally. Financially.
- Emotionally– I can’t use “work” as a way to find my “self-worth”.
- The Blessing: This has resulted in more time in prayer, the Word, and working to serve my family. Drawing closer to my Savior, my Faith, and having more time to invest in my marriage, my family, and hopefully soon my church family.
- Mentally– I don’t have these big complicated scenarios involving money, clients, or other things like policies and procedures to challenge me. So I have to find other things that are challenging and allow me to use my brain a little.
- The Blessing:I started writing a novel (lifelong dream), playing Sudoku (so addicting), and figuring out how to merge my Blogger blogs over to WordPress (which was a HUGE win that took several hours. IT FELT SO GOOD TO BEAT THE CHALLENGE!).
- Financially– I can’t go throwing whatever I want into the buggie (also known in the north as the “shopping cart”). Just because Pumpkin Spice coffee has finally been released at Dunkin Donuts and Starbucks doesn’t mean I can drive all the way into town every day to get one. (Or Two).
- The Blessing: I get to be crafty and learn new things. I have researched several options online for “making my own” and will be making my own Pumpkin Spice coffee tomorrow. (Bonus: It will be for a fraction of the cost AND a fraction of the calories. SCORE.) Also, I have more control over how my family is eating, what they are eating, and the reality is we can eat far healthier and better for the same amount of money OR less.
All in all, I am appreciating these days and this time in my life. I’ve also gone through the house and done some organizing of things.
The first is a meal planner. This helps me to know what needs to be prepped for when. I bought the Martha Stewart Home Office™ with Avery™ Dry Erase Weekly Planner from Staples a long time ago. It’s coming in handy now!
It fits right to the front of our fridge and the dry erase markers make it easy to keep it updated. There is no “hardware” to have to deal with. Very easy, and very inexpensive. It has a backing that sticks if you want, or as I prefer, stays easily with one or two small magnets.
I personally recommend it.
The second is my “house calendar”. We have a paper showing when it is my husband’s turn to run sound at church. A paper showing when we help on the church’s chair team. A paper for Ryan’s school days. A paper for my mother-in-law’s work schedule so we know when we can plan family things. Then of course there are the papers everywhere for doctor appointments, car appointments, birthdays, party invites, etc.
Which brings me to my awesome find. While I would love to have this someday in a Dry-Erase version, for $1.00 at Wal-Mart I could not resist getting a desk calendar.
All of those papers are now carefully tucked away in my “organizing bag” and we have one main calendar on the side of the fridge with all information on it.
At the start of each month, I can simply update the latest and greatest calendar, and moving forward we can all refer to the same one. Hopefully this will protect us from double booking ourselves! (A bad habit I must personally break.)
Yes. I loved most of my shopping time today. I made a day of it. Looking at things. Thinking of projects or crafts I can get into moving forward. Meal plans. Lunch box ideas. The best sales. The best values. Of course, I also took time to check out some clothing, some jewelry, browse books, movies, and then organize my buggie Like A Boss.
Now you’ll notice earlier, I said I loved nearly every minute.
There was an incident.
We buy Eight O’Clock Bean coffee in the BIG bag. You know, the biggest bag they sell?
We typically buy whole bean and then grind it fresh. Sometimes, being lazy, I grind it while I’m at the store just to cut down on the morning prep time.
So today we needed coffee.
Now, I’m at one of the Super Wal-Mart stores. You know how these stores go, totally and completely crowded. I’ve been in this particular store for about 2 hours by the time I get to the coffee.
I get my big bag of Colombian goodness and make the decision to grind it in the store.
Now, I’m 5’3 to 5’4. Not a very tall person by any means. The coffee bean grinder is within reach, however, I can’t see down into it. It’s just above my eye level ability. (And I’m wearing platform flip flops too BTW.)
I open up my huge bag of whole beans and proceed to dump it into the the grinder.
Apparently, the coffee grinder in this particular store does not hold the full contents of one of these large bags.
Because of the height difference, I find this out only after coffee beans go EVERYWHERE.
They are ping ponging off the shelves onto the floor in a symphony of chaos.
More beans are rolling out across the isle to overtake any pedestrian even thinking about tea or coffee.
With absolute horror I look up to see the mountain of beans spewing forth out of the top of the grinder like an angry volcano erupting, and there are still a fair amount of beans in the bag.
So what do I do?
Like any good citizen who suffers from severe anxiety and turns so red she can feel her entire body on fire, I set the partially-filled-with-beans bag back on the shelf next to the grinder (beans still trickling down the shelf in a little sing song “ping ping”), grab another unopened bag of Whole Beans, drop it in the buggie and walk away as quickly as is humanly possible in platform flip flops.
Lord forgive me. And please bless the poor soul who ended up cleaning that mess.
Sigh. I have to work on the anxiety thing still.
The rest of my shopping trip was a complete and utter blur. What I do know, is I came home with WAY MORE OJ than I needed, and three containers of Pumpkin Pie Spice instead of one. Not to mention a bunch of other stuff that put me WAY over the original budget I set for myself, which them prompted me to drive over to meet my husband for a bit on his short break at work, and burst into tears feeling like a complete and utter failure.
Today was an adventure.
On the plus side, it felt great talking to my son about his school day, making dinner for my family, and soon to be snuggling on the couch with the hubs for some quiet time before bed.
Life is an adventure. Life is good.
I am thankful for this opportunity.
And maybe, someday, in the far and distant future, I will try to grind my beans at a store. For now, home grinding will be the only grinding for me!
In Love & Faith,