It is Friday. You know what that means. Five Minute Friday.
Today’s Word: Focus
Right now I’m struggling to focus. My thoughts are weaving a spiderweb of many strands so fast and so quickly I’m having trouble keeping them in order.
I never get phone calls. This morning, in twenty minutes I’m called by four different numbers.
One call, a very dear friend. A best friend. A wonderful friend.
Focus. On what? On the fact I can’t be there to support her with the difficult news she has received? On the fact I can’t hold her and cry with her for just a few minutes? On the fact I’m so far away I only get to see her maybe once a year? I miss her.
Focus. How? I love her. I love her family. It’s so hard sometimes. Being so far away. From her. From everyone there and not here. My heart hurts.
Focus. Another call. This time about my son. More news. More things to cause my heart to quicken and worry.
Focus. On What? I’m spiraling at the moment. I’m emotional. Why am I so emotional?
Focus. I’m having trouble. I’m having trouble even focusing on these words.
Focus. I need some quiet time for my soul. Some quiet time to ask for comfort. Wisdom.
Focus. On friendship. I’m not there. But I am here. I love that dear friend. She is like a sister. I love her family. I can love them from here. I will love them from here.
Focus. On growth. My son will face more challenges. I want to help him face them with focus. The focus he needs to overcome the struggles of this world. The same focus I need right now.
The one who comforts. The one who guides. The one who gives us everything we need.