The Significance of 22

It’s just a number. Maybe an important date. Birthday. Anniversary. Number of years married. Part of a phone number. Part of an address.

For me, this morning, this is the number of pounds I have lost since January 1st, 2015. 

I did the happy dance and rushed to share the victorious news with my husband. I smiled and pranced in front of the mirror for a few moments and whispered “Thank you Jesus” several times.

As it really sunk in, I started thinking back.
Back to when the weight started piling on.
Back to when I spent hours and hours, alone during the day, sitting on my couch, eating and watching TV.
Back to when I wore my favorite red hoodie every day, not because it was my favorite red hoodie, because I was covering up. Hiding from the world.
Back to that moment when I went to put on a pair of jeans, and realized, not even my “big” jeans would fit anymore. I was literally without any pants to wear. And I sobbed. And my poor husband wanted to help, and couldn’t, because I was in this foggy, lonely place.
Back to smiling and saying “I’m fine” when people asked, putting on the front, and withdrawing and emo-eating at home.Read More »

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First Wednesday of the New Year – Water and Prayer

wellnessupI decided it was time to refocus on my “Wellness” journey. It seems to always be the first thing to go when stress, hardships, and trials enter into life. At least for me.

Which is kind of stupid.

Really.

When life gets hard and stressful, my response is to start eating lots of carbs, fats, processed foods, let my finances get out of wack, and stay up too late. Plus, last year, I started smoking again. After THREE YEARS of being smoke free, I broke down and became a smoker again to try and help me “deal”.

Clearly, this isn’t really “helping” me in the long run. Now I’m facing the same hardships and trials, with less energy and mental clarity.Read More »

WellnessUp: The Serious Question You Need to Ask

This health journey for me isn’t anything new. Let’s face it, I’ve done “Weigh-In Wednesdays” and “Wellness Wednesdays” and “Stand In Front Of The Mirror Eating Ice Cream Wednesdays“.  I joined Facebook groups focused on food and exercise. And while I have participated in and LOVE challenge groups, my challenge is ultimately me.

Just me.

Last year, something snapped. That snapping bleed into this year, and as I find myself coming out more and more on the other side of it, I realize that my overall Wellness is truly important.  My picture of Wellness incorporates so very many things. So many things that trying to even classify them or organize them in and of itself can become overwhelming.Read More »

#WellnessUp – The Plan, The Accountability

Walking through H.A.L.T. was good for me. Some of the principles are echoed in Made To Crave. Specifically the theme of pre-planning and accountability.

I recently finished reading Chapters 3 and 4, which I sum up as “Planning” and “Accountability”. Having a Plan is crucial to Healthy Eating, and accountability is equally important. When brutally honest with myself, while I started a Facebook group to help give me accountability, I haven’t yet really started utilizing it.

When it comes to food, I need a plan. I need accountability.

I also realize I need accountability with my mood. I know Wellness is both Physical and Spiritual, however, “emotional” squeezes in there too somewhere, and it’s an area I’ve still been struggling with. While I can blame a lot of outside sources for this, the reality is, only I can really be accountable for my insides.Read More »

#WellnessUp – Tired

HALT.Hungry.Angry_.Lonely.Tired_-300x245Tired.

I’ve blogged in the past about sleep (click here for that post). I assumed this week I’d sit down and reiterate the importance of sleep and yadda yadda.

Just search “effects of not sleeping enough” on Google and you’ll have plenty of articles to entertain yourself with. Yesterday I picked up a “PreventionGuide” from Prevention Magazine and read this on one of the pages:

Sleep loss is hazardous to your diabetes. After lack of sleep for two nights, people in one study had more of the hunger-inducing hormone ghrelin and less of the appetite-suppressing hormone leptin. That makes you more likely to overeat and crave refined carbs, which deliver a quick hit to your blood sugar.

Worse, lack of sleep makes you less able to process glucose. After just 6 days of sleep restriction, people develop insulin resistance, say researchers at the University of Chicago.

~PreventionGuide: Outsmart Diabetes, Spring 2015 Edition Read More »

#WellnessUp – Lonely

HALT.Hungry.Angry_.Lonely.Tired_-300x245I’ve been going through the H.A.L.T. principle each week, and this week the focus is L.

Lonely.

If there is one thing I know from personal experience, the enemy loves using this tactic:
you’re all alone. No one gets you, no one understands, no one is going through what you are going through.

And I forget it. I forget it and trip up all over myself.

Just this morning I was attacked with this overwhelming sense of lonely.
Trapped. Stuck. Not understood. Suffocated.
While my description of lonely may differ from yours, the result is the same.
Lonely strips away confidence and focuses inward.Read More »

#WellnessUp – Angry

HALT.Hungry.Angry_.Lonely.Tired_-300x245Sometimes God works in mysterious ways.
Last week two things happened. First I decided it would be the week I focused on “Angry” as part of the H.A.L.T. focus.
Secondly, I gave major praises to God for how He was working in me and my family’s lives, how He was also opening doors for a “dream” of mine I never thought was possible, and on and on.

Of course you know what that means.

“KA – BOOM!”

Last week I was confronted with “Angry” – a lot.
Both on the receiving and the giving side. I’m going to be real with you – Angry sucks.Read More »

#WellnessUp – Hungry

Last week I shared the H.A.L.T. principle. Since then my focus has been on the H – Hungry.

HALT.Hungry.Angry_.Lonely.Tired_-300x245

Hunger at times is unavoidable. There are a lot of times that it is avoidable. For the most part, my thoughts have been around how to avoid Hunger (and Hangry – the anger that comes from going too long without eating).

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