When You Are So Excited And You Just Can’t Hide It – Weigh In Wednesday

I’ve been missing from WIW the last six weeks because I’ve been on a different journey. The Made to Crave bible study with Proverbs31MinistriesBlog Versus-0032

It was so much more than I thought it would be. SO. MUCH. MORE.

Where does that leave me for WIW? With some confessions and some new goals.

Confession – I did not complete my second round of Whole30. I made it to day 27 before I had to eat what was available which meant ending my Whole30 a few days early. Whole30 is still something I find to be very helpful and will more than likely commit to doing it once a year. It really is that good.

Confession – I have not completed Power90 – yet. Week six is going to require a start over due to traveling, sickness, and then just not getting back on track. This week I’m going to go back to level 1 & 2 to get back into my groove, then start week six over again next week.

Now onto the new.

The new is I’ve learned some valuable lessons through the Made To Crave bible study, and I don’t want to lose those lessons. I’ve decided 2014 will be my year to #CraveGod when it comes to my fitness journey. I’ve continued with Proverbs31Ministries and am now participating in the Made to Crave Action Plan.

Week One MTCAP

My weeks run from Sunday to Saturday. So let’s Weigh In on how I’m doing thus far on my goals:

Fiber Goal: Takes effort! Meal planning is the only way to make this happen without taking supplements, which is my personal goal. What does this really mean for me? Discipline and self-control. Areas I know are the Lord’s will for me to grow in. Turning to Him and His power more and my own power less.
Water Goal: Totally working! I even have my husband joining me on this goal. It does make a noticeable difference, a wonderful benefit.

Lessons this week I am thinking about:

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A setback is just a set up for a comeback.” LOVE THIS. My weaknesses are a way God is made strong in me – it puts such a different twist on things. Instead of despair, it’s hope. Instead of failure, it’s humility. Instead of giving in, it’s giving up to God, and moving on.
Victory is not a destination. Victory is a path. A path God wants to walk with me. This is something the Lord spoke into my heart as I finished Made To Crave. Realizing that a “goal weight” is not an end, it’s just a beginning, was a huge revelation to me. Huge in how God is using this journey to teach me how to do all things to His Glory, including whatever I eat or drink.
His Grace Is Enough. So what if I’ve struggled with this for a year? What if I’ve struggled with this for two years? Or for the rest of my life? God is never tired of me bringing it to Him. He wants me to bring it to Him. It’s only as I continue to bring this struggle to Him that He will continue to reveal where I need to confess and repent, so that He can help me change it. He does love me right where I am. He loves me enough to not want to leave me where I am, He wants me to grow, He wants me to walk the path of victory.

It’s amazing how logically I’ve know things for a long time. Yet something is clicking inside. Clicking in a way that is truly helping me to see more.

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I am ready to make changes and not excuses. I am ready to continue drawing closer to God through this journey.

Introduction

I guess that is the best part about this journey to health. On a heart level, I have finally tied in how my relationship with food and exercise reveals my relationship with God. I’ve know for a long time food is an idol I keep having to dethrone. Now I’m seeing the depth of what that has really meant in my life, and the freedom God provides from it in a new way. Not just freedom to dethrone it, freedom to turn from it and run to Him.

So each week I will weigh in not only how I am doing with the Action Steps of my plan, I am also going to go back and weigh in on what the Lord is teaching me spiritually through this journey. I was made to eat food for my benefit, to survive, to thrive, and made to crave God. This is the journey I am on.

I will also share we are still in week one of the Made To Crave Action Plan – might I encourage you to sign up and try it out if you’re looking for some solid steps to take on your wellness journey to health? The videos are fantastic and each video will only be available for it’s specific week. What I love about the Action Plan is it’s about taking ACTION.
And I am Excited.
So Excited I’ve totally uprooted my original plan of action for this year to go in this new direction.
So Excited that I can’t hide it – which means – be prepared. I’m ready to Get Real. Get Changed. Get God. Give Glory. Give Worship.
2014 is about Craving God.

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I look forward to Weighing In with you this year. Won’t you join me? Please leave a link to you blog in the comments so I can swing by and encourage you if you are participating in WIW.
In Love and Faith,
RaZella

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Looking for a place to link up with others who are weighing in on Wednesdays? Make sure to hop over to Kim’s Blog and leave your blog link up there as well! 

Ready to Write Chapter 20 and Beyond

P31 OBS Blog HopI would love to tell you this study was “the answer” for me. I’ve reached my goal weight, I’ve left behind bad habits, and I’m totally soaking in the full and abundant life of Christ.

I haven’t and I’m not.

This week, this final week in a study that has been so encouraging and fantastic, has also been the hardest. This weekend I fell flat on my face. I won’t go into the details of how many calories I consumed (think LOTS). Instead of falling into a cycle of prolonged bad choices, last night I called it out for what it was.

Father,
Forgive me for turning to food to satisfy my emotions instead of turning to you. It was wrong. There are no other gods before You Lord, and I was wrong to try and place food on your throne for even a second. Teach me Lord how to be an overcomer with this struggle. Show me where I still need to change, and make it hurt Father so I will fall before you and seek you to change it in me. I ask for your Holy Spirit to convict and to heal. To reveal and to lift up. To admonish and encourage. I thank you for your words of Truth. Help me to focus on them and write them on my heart. To run to you and not away from you. All glory to you Father, for You are my God, my Savior, and Hope. Amen.

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I admitted to God my need for lasting, sustainable discipline. My need to make one wise choice after another. I do believe this is possible because my Father tells me it’s possible. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me“. (Philippians 4:13) That’s the key to sustainable discipline – it’s not my strength, it’s His. I can’t do it alone. I need Him.

What does this look like for me?

First – I am going to continue with the Made To Crave Action Plan with Proverbs31. I want to take advantage of finding additional tools for the “how to” part of my journey.

Second – I am going to continue with my Forgiveness journey. This study, which I thought would be just about food, opened up a calloused part of my heart I didn’t realize existed. It’s time to deal with that.

Thirdly – Going back to tracking my meals on MyFitnessPal for the month of March beginning today. The thought of giving up some foods forever made me indignant. I had absorbed the “everything in moderation” message. The realty is, not everything will I have in moderation because this has been an area of struggle for me for a very long time. To think it will only take a short time to truly deal with is something else I’ve bought into – and it isn’t true.
I tried to quit smoking cigarettes for years. A decade of quitting and starting back, quitting and starting back. The starting back always started with just one. One little occasion. One little reason. It always ended with being a full time smoker again. It wasn’t until I realized I could not quit with a bunch of little “occasions” waiting around the corner that I was able to really seek His strength and quit.
And guess what – it’s still a struggle. I have had one break down since my “true” quit date. My attitude about it is different however, so even in the face of a break down, it was quickly realized “no, I can’t do that again”.
The truth of “this is not OK for me to do” is hard and heavy and also freeing. It, in and of itself, is a victory that has lead to more victories with not giving in and not asking for a cigarette – even when I felt parts of my insides screaming “just one!!!!!”.
Once those little parts fade away, the victory afterwards is worth so much more than what I would have gained from any cigarette.

Realizing this leads to the reality there may be something I’m holding onto food wise I must let go. Completely. I’m not sure what it is yet, because with a binge eater like me, I feel like it could be everything except vegetables. Which brings me to my fourth step – praying about what I may need to walk away from. This means tracking my food, continuing to write in my study journal, praying over it, asking (and therefore expecting) the Lord to reveal to me what I need to give up entirely, and then giving it up. (This is also a part of the journey I am praying the Lord gives me excitement about, because right now I can already feel the tug of war between the part of me ready to make intentional sacrifices pulling against the part that wants what I want when I want it.)

Lastly, I plan on sharing this continued journey, my chapter 20 and beyond, on Wednesdays as I pick back up my Weigh-In Wednesday posts.

How is this intentional sacrifice on my part?  It’s going to mean going from I want what I want when I want it to “I want to please God, and I want what He wants, even when it comes to what I’m about to eat for lunch.”

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I remember the pastor who counseled my husband and I once talking about 1 Corinthians 10:31 – So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the Glory of God – and I internally rolled my eyes because I couldn’t make the connection between my morning coffee and God’s glory.

Blog Versus-0032That has changed. That’s what this is really about. It’s not the number on the scale. It’s not the number of push-ups I can do. It’s about living life to the Glory of God, overcoming struggles with victory in Christ, pointing to His Glory in every aspect of our lives. 

For me – my health has been a struggle in my life. It’s about overcoming this struggle through victory in Christ Jesus, pointing back to His Glory.

I’m ready to take the pen. I’m ready to start writing Chapter 20 and beyond of My Made to Crave, with the Holy Spirit providing the pen, Jesus providing the ink, and God providing the paper. 

In Love and Faith,
RaZella

24 Weeks of Sanity

I have been greatly blessed by the Women’s Bible Study I joined at my church this past fall. We meet on Wednesday nights and have been reading “Having A Mary Heart in a Martha Word” (which I wrote a personal review on) and we’ve just started “Having a Mary Spirit” (which I’m excited to be reading!)

62589: Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World Having a Mary Heart in a Martha WorldBy Joanna Weaver
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Recently, our wonderful facilitator shared with our group a “24 Point Sanity Manifesto” she discovered, and I have found myself glancing at it several times this week. I’m not entirely sure where she found it herself, however after a quick online search, I found a copy of it here.

I decided to use this as a 24 week “Sanity Challenge”.
I want to focus on each “number” in the guide for one full week.

I also want to really commit myself to memorizing some Scripture.

Which brings me to the first week in my “Sanity Challenge”.

1) First things first: Word in. Work out. Work plan.
Word in: Get into God’s Word and let it get into you.
Work out: Do something every morning that gets you moving.
Write out the work plan and then work the plan.

Today, I wrote out my Week One Plan. (side story: I love notebooks. Pretty blank notebooks speak of endless possibly and opportunity to me. I have far more than I will probably ever use, yet will enjoy trying to. I picked one of these many notebooks to use for my Sanity Challenge. It’s from my favorite collection of notebooks by Piccadilly which I often find on sale at one of their many retailers. The background of my photo is the notebook I’m using. 🙂 )

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I also want to memorize the following verse in Scripture by next Thursday.

“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” ~Colossians 3:12-13

I am excited to see how the Lord may use this “guide” to reveal some things to me, or help me to establish some new habits that will better help me serve Him, serve my family, and serve others. On a silly little note, I’m also excited to have found a purpose for another notebook. 🙂

My goal is to start tomorrow. Which means it’s time. I’ve talked about it long enough. I’ve tried long enough. It’s time to make getting up in the mornings happen. It’s time to count myself accountable towards this goal.

In doing so, I’m also linking up with

Must Love God

I plan on using Thursdays as a day to check in with my “Sanity Challenge” and my dedication to memorize some Scripture. It’s always a little scary to reach that point where you step out in accountability, yet, it’s also exciting to feel that deep desire to grow. If you are a blogger and have something you want some encouragement with in being accountable, consider linking up with the great group of ladies at MustLoveGod.

In Love & Faith,
RaZella

BONUS: Through my friend Meredith over at Meredith SingsI found a FREE 40 Day Devotional for Lent. I’ve read days 1 and 2, and I must say, it’s a wonderful read. This first week is focused on “Listening”. Which is another great reason for me to get the Word In! To get your own FREE copy, visit The Seed Company.