Weigh In Wednesday: Sometimes It’s About What’s On The Fridge

I have successfully completed my first full week of tracking my calories, sticking to my meal plans, and exercising. Each daily victory fuels me for a new day, and each victory has become a prompt to give praises to God.

Every week since starting the Made To Crave Bible study I have been putting a sign on my fridge. (The signs are free to print from the MTC Website) During the study we had weekly Bible Verses to focus on. I wrote my verse on my sign and hung it on the fridge at eye level.

I have to say, having Truth on my fridge has been INCREDIBLE. I encourage EVERYONE to do this. You will find yourself drawn to old habits, a fridge that whispers lies of fulfillment during times of stress, boredom, and worry. As you reach for the handle and your eyes finally look up from whatever they have been “fixed” on (the stress, the boredom, the worry) they will then be confronted with words of TRUTH. Oh what a blessing in a moment of weakness to behold that truth!

When I began the Action Plan study, new weekly versus were also given. I am now going back through my fridge signs to add a new verse to each one. I’ve decided that this will be part of MY Action Plan – every week to have a sign on my fridge with a verse I can cling to in times of temptation. This week’s verse has been wonderful in the face of some temptations I have had this week. Especially the chocolate kind.

 

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Speaking of chocolate, I did have one day where I indulged in a few extra pieces. The temptation was to grab another handful. Instead, I logged into MyFitnessPal and added in my chocolate candies. Just like that, 200 calories was quickly added to my daily nutrition. Seeing the numbers was a convicting reality of my old habits already attempting to resurface. It prompted me to ask myself these questions:

Why am I craving this chocolate? Because I’m tired, I’m slightly grumpy, and somewhere inside I am believing the lie that that chocolate is what will make it all better.
What is the truth about my craving? It won’t make it all better. It won’t change anything and the pleasure the candy will provide will be fleeting at best. The two minutes it took to eat the first handful of chocolate didn’t make the issue better, a second handful won’t either.
What do I truly need right now? God. The love and care of a God who wants me wanting Him more than candy. A God who is WORTHY of my love and my cravings far more than any piece of candy. I also need to tell someone about THIS specific temptation, to bring it out into the open, to pour light on it and let the light unveil it for what it is.

I didn’t get that second handful of candy. Instead, I closed my eyes and whispered “Lord, help me to say no. Help me to capture these thoughts of candy and instead rest securely in You. Help me to be focused on You, not on me.” Then, I told my husband as soon as he came home. I told him because sometimes, just saying it out-loud makes it all the more real. A real battle. A real struggle. A real victory. My husband hugged me and encouraged me. In that moment, that hug was what I needed more than candy. That assurance. The love from God poured out through my husband. All of which I would not have received had I just “kept quiet” and tried to move on without a word.

I spoke last week about accountability. Maybe that’s what “saying it out-loud” is really about. Continuing to hold myself accountable to others. Continuing to check in with my mom and my husband.

This week has been a great week. This week I also discovered a very easy and DELICIOUS soup. 2 cartons of vegetable broth, 2 chicken breast boiled in water until almost completely cooked, then shredded up, a bag of frozen broccoli, a bag of frozen Normandy blend vegetables, and 1 3/4 cups of barley. All in one pot, all cooked up. DELICIOUS. I determined that there were 15 servings (1 serving = 1 Cup). Per serving 165 calories/ 5g of fiber/ 22g of protein/ and 21g of carbs. I WILL be cooking this up again.

Moving forward, I also want to focus on “feeding” my mind. Why? Because I’m realizing that what goes into my mind affects so many things, and it’s right in line with my “power verse” for my health journey this year (1 Timothy 4:8). Today I created a playlist of music for my workouts. Some great lyrics and some great bands, I’m going to try and find a way and share that with ya’ll next week.

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My goals this week? Continue my previous weeks goals. I’m choosing to not add anything new at this point. I’m happy with my progress thus far and I’m looking forward to the week ahead.

How are you doing on your goals this week? If you’d like to connect on MyFitnessPal, then please send me a request and let’s encourage one another through the week as we strive to better our health.

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In Love & Faith,
RaZella

Ready to Write Chapter 20 and Beyond

P31 OBS Blog HopI would love to tell you this study was “the answer” for me. I’ve reached my goal weight, I’ve left behind bad habits, and I’m totally soaking in the full and abundant life of Christ.

I haven’t and I’m not.

This week, this final week in a study that has been so encouraging and fantastic, has also been the hardest. This weekend I fell flat on my face. I won’t go into the details of how many calories I consumed (think LOTS). Instead of falling into a cycle of prolonged bad choices, last night I called it out for what it was.

Father,
Forgive me for turning to food to satisfy my emotions instead of turning to you. It was wrong. There are no other gods before You Lord, and I was wrong to try and place food on your throne for even a second. Teach me Lord how to be an overcomer with this struggle. Show me where I still need to change, and make it hurt Father so I will fall before you and seek you to change it in me. I ask for your Holy Spirit to convict and to heal. To reveal and to lift up. To admonish and encourage. I thank you for your words of Truth. Help me to focus on them and write them on my heart. To run to you and not away from you. All glory to you Father, for You are my God, my Savior, and Hope. Amen.

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I admitted to God my need for lasting, sustainable discipline. My need to make one wise choice after another. I do believe this is possible because my Father tells me it’s possible. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me“. (Philippians 4:13) That’s the key to sustainable discipline – it’s not my strength, it’s His. I can’t do it alone. I need Him.

What does this look like for me?

First – I am going to continue with the Made To Crave Action Plan with Proverbs31. I want to take advantage of finding additional tools for the “how to” part of my journey.

Second – I am going to continue with my Forgiveness journey. This study, which I thought would be just about food, opened up a calloused part of my heart I didn’t realize existed. It’s time to deal with that.

Thirdly – Going back to tracking my meals on MyFitnessPal for the month of March beginning today. The thought of giving up some foods forever made me indignant. I had absorbed the “everything in moderation” message. The realty is, not everything will I have in moderation because this has been an area of struggle for me for a very long time. To think it will only take a short time to truly deal with is something else I’ve bought into – and it isn’t true.
I tried to quit smoking cigarettes for years. A decade of quitting and starting back, quitting and starting back. The starting back always started with just one. One little occasion. One little reason. It always ended with being a full time smoker again. It wasn’t until I realized I could not quit with a bunch of little “occasions” waiting around the corner that I was able to really seek His strength and quit.
And guess what – it’s still a struggle. I have had one break down since my “true” quit date. My attitude about it is different however, so even in the face of a break down, it was quickly realized “no, I can’t do that again”.
The truth of “this is not OK for me to do” is hard and heavy and also freeing. It, in and of itself, is a victory that has lead to more victories with not giving in and not asking for a cigarette – even when I felt parts of my insides screaming “just one!!!!!”.
Once those little parts fade away, the victory afterwards is worth so much more than what I would have gained from any cigarette.

Realizing this leads to the reality there may be something I’m holding onto food wise I must let go. Completely. I’m not sure what it is yet, because with a binge eater like me, I feel like it could be everything except vegetables. Which brings me to my fourth step – praying about what I may need to walk away from. This means tracking my food, continuing to write in my study journal, praying over it, asking (and therefore expecting) the Lord to reveal to me what I need to give up entirely, and then giving it up. (This is also a part of the journey I am praying the Lord gives me excitement about, because right now I can already feel the tug of war between the part of me ready to make intentional sacrifices pulling against the part that wants what I want when I want it.)

Lastly, I plan on sharing this continued journey, my chapter 20 and beyond, on Wednesdays as I pick back up my Weigh-In Wednesday posts.

How is this intentional sacrifice on my part?  It’s going to mean going from I want what I want when I want it to “I want to please God, and I want what He wants, even when it comes to what I’m about to eat for lunch.”

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I remember the pastor who counseled my husband and I once talking about 1 Corinthians 10:31 – So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the Glory of God – and I internally rolled my eyes because I couldn’t make the connection between my morning coffee and God’s glory.

Blog Versus-0032That has changed. That’s what this is really about. It’s not the number on the scale. It’s not the number of push-ups I can do. It’s about living life to the Glory of God, overcoming struggles with victory in Christ, pointing to His Glory in every aspect of our lives. 

For me – my health has been a struggle in my life. It’s about overcoming this struggle through victory in Christ Jesus, pointing back to His Glory.

I’m ready to take the pen. I’m ready to start writing Chapter 20 and beyond of My Made to Crave, with the Holy Spirit providing the pen, Jesus providing the ink, and God providing the paper. 

In Love and Faith,
RaZella

FMF: Afraid To

Five Minute FridayFive Minute Friday is here at last!
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing
2. Link back here
3. Go and leave some comment love on the post before yours at least, and many many more if your up for it!

Today’s Word: Afraid

Afraid To

Failure.
The act of making an attempt,
yet not being successful.
The attempt.
Eliminate the attempt
you eliminate the failure.
Or have you only increased the rate of failure?
Is the lack of an attempt
in itself,
Failure?
Yet the attempt is scary.
Especially if you find yourself,
attempting again.

What if it doesn’t work?
What if I can’t succeed?
What if I tell people this thing that I am about to attempt,
and I fail?

And so it comes,
not failure itself,
yet being afraid of failure.

Fear is such a tricky thing.
It catches your breath.
It makes you hesitate.
It causes you to stop so suddenly,
and at times,
For so long,
that it freezes you in place.

Being afraid to try is worse than Failure,
because then we never know,
if we would have failed.

We rob ourselves of growth.
We rob ourselves of learning.
We rob ourselves of Victory.

I am afraid to fail.
I am afraid to try.
I am more afraid to remain frozen in this place,
until I look up to see that time has completely passed me by.

So I’ll reach out to take a hand.
My husband’s.
A friend’s.
My Savior’s.

I will turn away from this place of fear,
I will take the first tentative step,
and I will try.
And maybe,
I will fail.
At first.
At second.
At third.

Yet fear,
being afraid,
will not stop me from Victory.

STOP

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In Love & Faith,
RaZella