Wellness Wednesday: The Difficult One To Write

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Before I jump
into today’s post,

I’d first like to ask you to join me over at MustLoveGod.

To take a moment
and think about
what kind of bee you are.
This was a lesson
the Lord brought to my attention last week
when my back was hurting.
I hope you will find it encouraging.

Today’s post has been difficult for me to write. I’ve started, stopped, and re-started. I learned in church this weekend that in Maine, the child food insecurity rate is nearly 1 in every 4 children. Maine ranks 1st in New England for child and senior food insecurity. A person is considered food insecure if they lack access to enough food to ensure adequate nutrition.

And here am I, about to write a blog about my “health and nutrition”.
I suddenly felt so overcome by inadequacy to write this post, I gave up and walked away, feeling there is nothing I have to offer to point to
God’s glory about my “Wellness Wednesday”.

Then I felt convicted as I walked away. Because God meets us where we are. He wants us where we are, so He can begin to transform us into who we are to be in Christ. This “Wellness Wednesday” is where God is meeting me, in my life, and transforming this area of my life.  It’s part of my journey.

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I made a commitment to complete a 30 day program, and I successfully completed it.

I can’t take credit for completing it, because the credit belongs to Christ. One of the most important things I learned during the 30 days is we cannot truly succeed apart from Christ. Even in something as simple and ordinary as how we eat.

I had made food an idol. I had a relationship with food. Turning to food for comfort and fulfillment instead of for nutrition and fueling my body. When emotionally “unhinged”, I would turn to the nearest “comfort food” and eat to the point of being physically sick, trying to fill the void. The biggest Praise I have for this 30 Days is that I learned to go to Christ in prayer First. He gave me everything I needed emotionally, so I could learn to take better care of myself Physically. 

It does take an effort to eat healthier. Just like it takes an effort to get good grades, to train for a marathon, to learn how to be a better parent, to invest in a marriage, to make a scarf out of a ball of yarn.
The amazing thing is as you keep putting effort into making the scarf, it gets easier. The next scarf knits faster. You find yourself parenting better and loving your spouse better because as you make the effort to do so, you learn how to in a better way.
So it does take an effort to eat healthier, once you do, it gets much easier. Easier to shop. Easier to cook meals. Easier to make healthy fit into a budget.

Of the scary things I learned over the last 30 days, the most important one would be how much sugar we were eating before versus now. Not just natural sugars either, all of the added sugars, the chemical sugars. How much “non food” we were ingesting on a regular basis. Even when I thought I was eating “healthy”, I can now see why it wasn’t working. Because it still wasn’t very healthy.

My husband and I both saw very direct impacts of the Whole30. He was able to cut back dramatically on his diabetes medications (he is type II). He has cut back by over 75%. He also lost 7 to 8 pounds and REACHED the goal weight his doctor set for him at his last check in.

How did I fair?

Last Weigh In, January 30th:                                Today’s Weigh In:
Weight: 139.4                                                         Weight: 134.0
Total Weight Loss since aiming for target weight: -16lbs

I got to this place back in September last year. Then I added back half the weight I’d lost. I “added back” due to my unhealthy relationship with food. Finally seeing it for what it really was, acknowledging food had become an idol in my life, and taking the steps to dethrone it through the power and strength of Christ, I found hope. Hope in Christ. Hope that is bleeding into other areas of my life I wasn’t even aware was in need of His hope.

I have also learned thankfulness this last 30 days. Thankfulness to live in a country where I can make healthier food choices. Thankful our Lord provides for us in such a way we can provide our son with food, so he never wonders if he’ll be able to eat today or not.

While I would recommend Whole30 to anyone who is struggling to learn healthier eating habits, wanting to dethrone food as an idol, or trying to take better physical care of their health, most importantly I encourage everyone to seek God first. Make Him a part of your physical health journey. Make Him the Most Important part of it. I’ve tried programs of every shape and size in the past, never completing them, never getting any healthier by them, never having enough will-power to make it through them. I’ve never tried one with the intention of putting Christ first. I believe doing that first, combining it with a genuinely fantastic program like Whole30, is what gave me the strength to be able to complete the program and gain healthier habits.

The only scary part in all this? I feel like He’s going to start revealing other idols to me I’m not yet aware I have…
The best part, we as a family have made a decision to take action about the hunger happening in our state, in our community. Sometimes I think that’s why the Lord lays conviction on our hearts, so that His Holy Spirit can call us to take action.

I’m linking up with Kim at Weigh in Wednesdays  because I appreciate the encouragement and accountability this fantastic group of women provide for this journey to better health.

I’m also still linking up with IntoxicatedonLife for Wellness Wednesday. I love the energy and time they invest in sharing how to live a healthier life and the knowledge they offer towards that goal.

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In Love & Faith,
RaZella

 

Day 27 of Whole30 and Injury

Whole30It’s day 27 of my Whole30 Program. I’m only 3 days away from completion. Food choices, meal planning, and grocery shopping are much easier than they were during that first week. I took a lot of suggestions I got from last week’s post and this week cooked double batches of meals so that way every single day was not spent “re-inventing” the wheel. THANKS EVERYONE! 🙂

I started this program because of the conviction I felt about making food an idol. Trying to use food to fill the emotional “void” whenever I was upset, disappointed, or frustrated. I believe the Lord has used this program to draw me closer to Him. To help me see just how “addictive” some of my food choices were, as well as to recognize the instances when I needed to focus on Him first. This has been the greatest blessing of the journey so far.

Additionally, I have felt better physically as a whole. I’ve not been bloated. I have had more energy throughout the day. I have been sleeping much better at night. I don’t spend time in-between meals thinking about food, and I still greatly enjoy the tastes, flavors, and smells of food when I do eat. Only once this week (yesterday) did I struggle with a desire to “mow”.

Less than a year ago I injured my back weight lifting. I was out of commission for a week. Then a few months ago while being silly with my husband (trying to prevent him from yawning) that same spot locked up, twinged, and was re-injured, leaving me in pain for several days.

Yesterday, I handed a friend a container of half and half cream for their coffee, and that same spot on my back violently locked up, twinged, and now aches. Making it difficult to walk, stand, bend, sleep, etc.

Emotionally, this injury is extremely frustrating for several reasons. The routine of exercising is now going on hold, again. The commitments I made to help others, I’ve now had to miss some and may end up missing more. If the snowy weather heading this way doesn’t cancel the Bible study I enjoy on Wednesday nights, I’ll be missing it due to my inability to sit long enough to go. Last night was the first night in a long time I didn’t sleep well, because every move woke me up. Deep down I wonder fearfully, “is this just the way it’s going to be from now on? Every so many months my back just giving out on me?

Wellness isn’t just physical, it’s also emotional. This morning, I let my emotions be in control of my thoughts instead of letting Truth be my thoughts. When Truth is what I focus my thinking around, then my emotions follow Truth. 

How does this all tie into Wellness Wednesday for me?

Truth is, I have hurt my back. Sheer force and willpower is not going to make it heal. What I can do, is take care of myself physically and call my chiropractor for an appointment while my body does what God designed it to do, heal.

Truth is, just like the scale does not define who I am, my exercise routine does not define who I am. Exercise is a gift from God as a way for me to take care of my physical body. Just like rest is a gift from God to take care of myself physically and spiritually when I need to.

Truth is, my friends are my friends and will understand if I’m unable to help with something because I am injured. They would not want me to further injure myself trying to “be the hero”.

Truth is, my family loves me, and they understand having to “do my job” around the house when I am unable to. Again, my family does not want me trying to “be the hero” and hurting myself even more. They would rather I heal than wash dishes. It’s OK for dishes to get dirty and sit around until someone is available to clean them. Just because they are there, doesn’t mean I have to be the one to do them. It’s OK for things to not go exactly the way I expect them to go.

What I can do –
Take the opportunity to spend some quiet time with Him.
Read my Bible study so I am prepared and not behind for when I can go.
Make a new meal plan and grocery shopping list to keep the momentum going for our new healthy lifestyle when it comes to food.
Knit. Because I love knitting and it doesn’t involve a lot of moving. 🙂

My hope and prayer for next Wednesday is that I’m back up and at it! I’m taking the rest of this week off with exercise regardless of how quickly my back heals, to make sure I don’t re-injure myself. Next Wednesday I’ll also weigh in and take my measurements to see where I am at in regards to my health goal for weighing in.

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I’m still linking up with the awesome ladies at Weigh In Wednesday and the great resources of Wellness Wednesday. I highly recommend both as great resources, wonderful encouragement, and to help have accountability.

My hope and prayer for everyone who is trying to grow on the journey to Wellness, is that they are realizing their need for Christ to be part of such a journey. That they are discovering where changes are needed, and finding victory through Him for the needed transformations to start taking place.

In Love & Faith,
RaZella